Urgent!

This post is regarding "M" who we recently raised the funds to get a medical evaluation. I have been waiting to do an update on him until I had a little bit more information about what was happening with the money that was raised.

From my understanding, Life2Orphans has just recently wired the money to arrange this evaluation for "M."
In the meantime, we have received word that "M"s physical condition seems to be deteriorating. The last photo I was sent of him, while it contained his signature smile, he also looked quite pale in a way that raised concern for me.

Life2Orphans is doing everything they can to check into this situation and get "M" whatever medical attention he needs. They have been talking with Spina Bifida specialists at OSU who have theorized that "M"s bedridden condition and lack of movement have lead to a quicker deterioration of the muscles than would otherwise occur.
(Ok, that sounds obvious, but apparently some physical deterioration can be normal even for teens with SB receiving the best of care).
They are looking into the option of transporting "M" to the United States for medical procedures, but at this time this sort of thing has never occurred in the country where "M" is residing.

So let me get to the point.
"M" needs a family.
NOW.
His situation is considered URGENT
For 13 years he has sat in the same bed, laughing, smiling, and bringing light to all around him while his body has slowly deteriorated. It is time for us to be the light givers for "M."
It is (past) time for him to get a family.
Life2Orphans is seeking a paper ready family (or a family who can easily become paper ready) for "M" ASAP.

PLEASE spread the word.

Made my day!

Ok, right after my sadly self-centered and self-depricating post yesterday, I got this beautiful picture in my inbox:

Isn't this just the most beautiful little girl ever?
This is a picture of the little girl I sponsor through Life2Orphans with all of her Christmas presents that I had the privilege of sending her.
What a blessing to see her not only with a smile on her face, but also out of her bed in a wheelchair! That is complete and total thanks to Life2Orphans individual caretaker program that this beautiful little girl (who has arthrogyposis) is able to enjoy her life outside of the confines of a bed now!
I am not posting this to sing my own praises for sponsoring this little girl, but to post encouragement to anyone and everyone else who would like to make a difference in a child's life. This program has changed my life and my heart in more ways than I can mention, not to mention changing the life of this little girl.
If your heart is bleeding for the orphans like mine is, yet you are not in a situation to adopt, please please please put aside self-pity (as I so blatantly displayed in my last post) and put your extra change to use blessing a child.
Stay tuned, I will be posting more pictures of children in desperate need of sponsors very shortly. We are striving to get every single child in the bedridden program an individual sponsor this year.
Please contact L2O to sponsor a child!

Just too hard sometimes

It's been a while since I've updated this blog.
Quite honestly, it's just too hard sometimes.

Why does that beautiful little girl have to lie all alone in a crib with her hands tied in stockings, when I would be willing to come and get her?

Why does that amazing little boy have to sit alone in his bed all day when I would so love to take him out to experience the world?

Why do I have to be single at this time in my life when I want so badly to have a family and children? Why do I have to hear their cries when there is nothing I can do to rescue them?

Quite honestly, I am jealous of every one I see adopting, and jealousy isn't exactly a trait one is supposed to possess. So I have hidden from this blog, trying to ignore my own feelings of wistfulness at what I am not ready for at this point in my life.

Bu recently I have noticed people actually viewing my blog. People actually noticing Emmitt and Elena.  Is it possible that I could actually have some impact on finding these two a family?

Whether or not I have any part in it, I can only hope and pray that God will lead their family to them long before I am in a situation to adopt.

And in the meantime maintain my faith that I can be useful in whatever small way.